But after a while, we discovered a mutual love for a show that was relatively less popular in India. Finding another person who knew of the show, let alone worshiped it with fevour, was the stuff euphoria was made of. And so, against my better judgement we became (forgive me for the next part) as thick as thieves.
Random musings of a Cluttered Mind
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Some of my favourite people-2
But after a while, we discovered a mutual love for a show that was relatively less popular in India. Finding another person who knew of the show, let alone worshiped it with fevour, was the stuff euphoria was made of. And so, against my better judgement we became (forgive me for the next part) as thick as thieves.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
http://blogs.hbr.org/cs/2012/01/to_find_happiness_forget_about.html
Monday, January 3, 2011
Some of my favourite people-part 1
We'd known each other for a while before that through common friends(well actually, common friend but as she is a multitude of personalities in herself,each more charming than the other, common friends isn't perhaps so wrong) but other than the polite acknowledgement when we met in the hallowed halls of Soggo(a deceptive hellhole away from home) there was, little else. But as our time to move on coincided and we found ourselves in a new place bored out of our petty pseudo-intellectual minds, suffice to say, we bonded. In her I've found an ideal acquaintance turned friend. With the kind of wit that was sharp enough to provoke and yet not overly intellectualized that it would make no sense, a mind that was as petty and materialistic as mine and most importantly one of those charming personalities that promises to leave even the biggest cynic impressed, I'd found my FAVOURITE facebook partner.
No prizes for guessing who that 'not-so-special, slightly deranged' someone is, sigh! bumbles I'm talking about u.
As another year passes and I continue to wonder how it is, that I ever came to be this taken with a woman who spends most of her time oogling over married men with names like Kaka and whose idea of a fun conversation is a) fantasizing over aforementioned strange men or b)trading insults I realized that it probably was because I enjoyed every minute of those conversations just as much if not more. There is something strangely liberating about having a friend with whom you don't have to share ur life and troubles but with whom you can start all over everyday and FORGET ur not-so-fun real life. A friend who is looking for nothing more than a good time and a fun conversation. Someone u can spend hours making plans a stalker/bomber/mserial killer would be proud of, with. I am fortunate enough to have found one such friend. And that folks is definitely something I will always thank aforementioned, otherwise annoying social networking site for.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Life as I know it.
Snake: Hello there. What did u do today?
Me: I turned into a snake and hissed at a bunch of preschoolers trapped inside grown men's bodies, listened to self obsessed retards moan on about their petty problems, broke two pairs of slippers on the same day and got shoe bite. Oh! and I watched axe ur ex on the day of the world cup finals! So yes, truly an emotionally fulfilling day and u?
Snake: Ummm... I ate icecream and fantacized about spainiards and shakira.
Sunday, May 16, 2010
what is forgiveness
-kite runner
Enough said!
paraphrased- forgiveness is waking up one fine morning and realizing it just doesn't hurt anymore
Sunday, April 11, 2010
Signed, sealed, delivered
Frustrated and ignored
Hating what she's doing
Questioning what she's been told
She looks around her at the life she had
Wondering how she let it get so bad
Knowing it's never easy to take a stand
Against the people who love you and have held your hand
But this restlessness won't let her stay on track
the nice girl mask has begun to crack
The flaws are obvious the pain is real
Now you will know exactly how she feels:
Thank you for all that you have given me
For the love, the care and the security
But now I must question all that you've done
question your motives, each and every one
did u really believe, raise me this way you should
or did u know somewhere deep down this would lead to no good
To answer your question, yes, I'm afraind of what I'll find
Afraid I won't be able to leave the past behind
But seek I must, your answers so hesitant
Simply for the closure they provide, they are pertinent
Don't be afraid love you, I will
Till the very end and beyond, if possible
But with this knowledge, finally I will know
What I am to do and where I am to go
No more nagging doubts, no more living a lie
The world will be my oyster and away I will fly
Away from the pretences, away from the lies
Away from the laughs trying to mask the cries
But as far as I may go, remember you I must
For in the end when it is all over,
of one thing I am always sure
I am yours
That's all there is,
There isn't any more!
ps- this is what happens when I have nothing to do except watch way to many TV dramas
Monday, January 25, 2010
moments of sanity
The strangest thing happened today. I was offered a job. No that isn't the strange part though to many of you that in itself is(understandably) a miracle. The strange part is, after what seems like a lifetime (though factual evidence says a year) I am now officially over a defeat that had knocked me out cold.
The past one year has helped me put alot of things in perspective. I now realize what it feels like to be abandoned. The past year my life went on without me. I was nothing but a mere spectator, watching as people and events took decisions for me. I felt numb, hollow and dead inside. I could no longer bring myself to care about anything that happened to me or others. I could see with startling clarity the pointlessness of existence and the sheer waste of it all. Dress up? But why what did it matter, search for a career what's the point I'm not going to get anywhere anyway! And so on.. Everyone I met tried to help in their own little way. There were those who claimed it to be the institute's loss, there were those who said I was making a huge fuss over nothing (i still don't have the faintest clue how their intentions were good but all the same..), then there were the kind few who acknowledged what I had lost and patiently held my hand, promised me there would be more opportunities and encouraged me to do some soul searching. Of course as is the law of nature for every such individual there were the people who chastised me and told me to work harder and deserve it. I felt like the world had stopped and nothing made any sense anymore.I lay lethargic in my bed(figuratively speaking, of course) trying to discover the spark that carried me forward before everything fell apart. I blamed myself, I worshipped the institute even more and I felt even more useless. I drifted around flirting with various career paths never being able to stick to one, mainly just being led.
But today a year to my own personal tragedy I sat in an auto pumped up, adrenaline rushing through my veins trying to think up ways to split myself into 3 persons so that I could do all that I desired at the same time, when I suddenly realized I was making a move, I was deciding and I was trying , finally I began to take control of my life again. Once I got home the lethargy began to spread once more but atleast for those few brief moments I was abe to once again taste the thrill of ambition..and for that I am thankful
ps-written when i was EXTREMELY sleepy, forgive me for the rambling